All Hallows (Written early 2000’s)

On all hallows eve

We may all drop our masks

For this one night

Even monsters may walk the streets

Free of persecution and fear

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And though we may not be monsters

The tainted nature that lies beneath innocent eyes

Is far from pure and true

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 But should our true nature be too much a scare

We can always cover it with a new façade

To give us a change from the everyday

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 But as you would show your soul

So do others in this fantastical affair

The trick of the night

Is telling the real creatures from the faces of paint

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And should the option be given

Of trick or treat

Beware others interpretations

For another’s treat could be your worst idea of a trick

Nightmares in a Heart of Glass

To watch a nightmare through a heart of glass

An ash covered field where dreams do start

A curse of a demon whose tears have burnt

For the sake of a angel that transcends this world

A quest that hath faltered upon deserts of icy shards

As in dying breath I am forced to see a vision of events passed

A nightmare glanced through a heart of glass

To burn the skies with but a look

My wrath and vengeance could burn empires if left unchecked

It is the scorching flames that dragons bellow from their fiery guts

The merciless fury that god like creatures cast down upon the earth

Less than few can stand against the torrent of a man possessed

Even less can tame it

It is those blessed that with obsession I hunt

It is those blessed that with much regret I miss

The Price?

The creative storm is a less than forgiving mistress and rarely shows mercy, for the storm has no room for anything but the project, the mission, the act of imagination turned form. But a worse fate would be to live without the genesis spark that ignites endless ideas, for it defines us as much as much it destroys us.

The Creative Type: An Origin Story

Picture this; the factory has just finished its last run of ‘types’ for delivery, the ‘Sports Stars’ are ready to run wild and free across their respective habitats, ‘Politicians’ are maliciously plotting to manipulate situations and back stab the competition till their black hearts are replete. ‘Rebellious’ type feverishly gathering momentum to rage against the social machine and the ‘Normal’ average person is just patiently waiting to contentedly run their happy little lives.

The orders from on high have been completed as jubilant workers look forward to a few hundred years off until they need to expand the range to include Flappers, Bikers, Mods and Rockers, not to mention the myriad of new personalities to be generated with the march of time and technology.

The once proud building is eerily quiet as person shaped moulds linger unloved and spent, as rejected or defective components are left discarded at the back of store rooms that once shone with the best qualities of humanity. Majestic machines once so splendid unhealthily spit out cogs; thick pillars of horrific black smoke escape through cracked facades.

Some ‘Management’ type in an upstairs office is casually perusing the reports from his padded chair, sipping coffee from a drinks maker that humanity is yet to develop the technology required to build it, something for another time and another poor sod to deal with!

Then the mind shattering revelation slams our now shaken ‘Management’ type…

Who will design the stadiums for competitive sports? How will the ruling forces be immortalised in stone and paint? How will the rebellious, mass outside palaces and parliaments if nobody works out a way to build them? Panic sets in….

Back in the factory only the most humble of employees remains to reflectively survey the wreckage that once contributed to the foundation of a specie’s ascent to civilisation and mastery over the natural world. Defunct machines that have been running for a time as long as evolution itself, burnt out and no longer in a safe state to work; tired and broken, various bloody nicks go unnoticed as our sole remaining worker feels his body ache, the first hundred years or so will be spent just unwinding, let alone attempting anything else.

The lights so close to going out, our humble worker can feel the freedom he seeks…

The familiar noise of another order request hitting a desk is like an anvil upon our worker’s dreams, who dare request more than has been given? To say the resulting feelings weren’t pure would be a lie… to say they were akin to poisonous rage wouldn’t be! After the rage there is resignation, resignation turns to single-minded focus “get this done and you’re free” becomes the worker’s chant.

“URGENT: We need a ‘Creative’ type, everything’s on the line” he reads the order with a frustrated sigh – “get this done and you’re free” repeats again as the seemingly forsaken task begins.

Condemned signs are torn off the machinery as fits of fevered activity and angry screaming can be heard in abundance, the defunct machines are reanimated in miraculous fashion whilst musings on how to fix the unloved moulds start to form semi-coherent designs in our worker’s mind. The work is rewarding but stressful, the number of successes is met with an equal number of failures and still there is the final challenge/question; what is a ‘Creative’ type? Why is he the only one left to decide?

Shattered pieces manically come together in artistic style, where elements are missing, replacements are dug out from the abandoned discarded depths of the storeroom and the mould now resembling abstract art more than any of the mundane forms that have preceded it. Mirrored in the mould’s jerry-rigged appearance of functional chaos is the mind-set of such a perfectly imperfect, impossible creature. The Creative’ type…

A lashing of the sport star’s energy and passion as fuel for the storm

A dash of politician’s cunning underlies the process that binds together random elements

A stirring of wildness and freedom drawn from a rebel’s rebellious streak, an essence of defiance to match

The final ingredient is stolen from genesis itself, a pure spark of imagination at its best

Our worker gives the final fatal spice that drives, inspires, twists and destroys, whilst acting as the catalyst for creativities inherent instability, but what is this fatal element you ask?

It is the vengeance and fury of being the only one to truly understand, to see the world in all its colours both wretched and bright. This very essence of such forces like depression, anxiety and untamed frenzy hath been born of our worker’s resentful venom, which has leaked into the mix with as much genuine positive motive, as spiteful intention to seek vengeance for sanity lost.

Out of the factory gates goes the first batch, destined for greatness and beyond, our worker however leaves through the side gate as the heavy cloak of night conceals the silent exit of this story’s unseen hero. So let us raise a glass to the nameless worker for what has been gifted, imagination unbound; under our breaths a muttered curse for the price we pay, the relentless storm that remorselessly consumes rational thought.

And when the hour is high in the shadowy night, when you feel the humble worker’s corrupted smile from heavens above, contemplate deep the true mystery: that is the ‘Creative Type’.


I wrote a poem entitled ‘To Play the Fool’; its opening line reads ‘The role of saint is one I do not wish’ and upon that note I find my current mood very much resonating.

I’m not a naturally social person; neither do I feel the need to care about much that doesn’t concern me, great way to introduce myself I know! But I’m a good person; I am knightly in my noble quest to better other’s lives when the duty calls, even when my own life is on the fast track to hell. I have seen the twisted depths of self destruction that humanity can lead to, tasted the sour mix of disappointed and am forced to endure the horrid flavour it’s forced down my throat.

So to the world I stand in my tarnished but honourable armour, banner in hand as upon the chaos of other’s lives I ride to save the day, a damn fine fellow to the core. The less subtle way of explaining it has a more ruthless edge, my true colours revealed as the machine of my nature is exposed in its callous truth, my words not in sync with the world of fluffy shit we are expected to live by.

I have to deal with the shit, the crap of human nature as with little enjoyment and the grim flash of an unnatural smile I eat the putrid servings forced upon me, the true bite of this unholy situation reflected in the time I am alone and dealing with my own shit. Who is there for me to turn to? After I’ve seen the worst of those around me can I still pretend I’m not on my own? Why should I care?

So I sit with my laptop, a picture of loneliness, Jazz FM in the background to dissuade my destructive tendencies as I type the poisonous resentment seeping from every fault line of my fractured soul, the question I feel needs asking ringing loud; Can you lose the ability to care?, a notion whose words haunt with every letter that’s entwined into its threatening formation.

To explore this dangerous notion I must first state the background from which I draw the question, I am an intently good person who pays my dues and abides by the laws of common decency, I’m not perfect by far but I don’t commit any major sins or moral breeches and even appear human on occasion. Yet my attempts to find happiness and contentment in life are twisted against me, emotion wreckage a chillingly common sight on the paths I take to engage my humanity, my legs were broken before the race of life even began.

You would think I might be awarded for trying, some hollow token of happiness at least to numb the crippling pain I feel as I am reminded just how rigged the odds against me were, a taste of pure joy that doesn’t reduce to hurtful ash before I get the briefest sample of genuine pleasure. When a man is made/born to feel this level of wretchedness without reprieve you realise the futility of my question, it’s not a case of can you lose the ability to care but when.

“A light no matter how small is a sun when shone in the dark, unless the darkness has become blindness to any form of light”, how long until this becomes my own fate…

From the ashes of the past few weeks

As quietly as I entered this little world of free speech and open opinions I will rise from the ashes of instability’s flames, black wings unfurled once more as the embers of creativity burn me from within with the damning heat of a critics sarcastic barbs. So look deep into the night of my mind eye’s bleak and jaded vision of depressions crops reaching full articulated might, no happy thoughts to corrupt the endless winter landscapes of a once positive outlook striped bare.

And should I make it into the footnotes of a passer-by’s casual glance at all the treasures the week will reveal, a twisted smile of ill-inspired and twisted intent will creep itself across the open plains of my world weary face. So till the twilight hours of another day I bid farewell to all those willing to read my words, indulge my depressive edge and grant me a brief reprieve from the endless slaughter of life’s cruel torrent.

So to mark the second of the minute of the hour of the day I ask that with the beverage near to hand you raise a toast, saying under breathe or loud as a banshee’s cry “when hell is at the gates, there’s still a gate standing!”, an evil glance of unnerving insanity conveyed to anyone that would disapprovingly review your little display.

Till the next

Bob Larkin

Outward Eyes and Inward Lies

I burn as ferociously as a hundred suns cloaked within the shroud of a thousand shadows

The outward eyes of casting glances wash upon the vicious reefs of cold relent

Inward visions of the ever reaching landscapes haunt with beauty as realities collide

To break the fragile divide of desolate emptiness that borders worlds of untold wealth

A challenge of intent that only malicious minds of ill repent may cross with time

As upon the fertile ground those chosen for blind obsession will find their feet may tread

The heat of a hundred suns that with ferocious passion burn less worthy where they stand

Shrouds of a thousand shadows cast into endless mazes those that foolish whims have led

The reward for the proven worthy silently waiting behind the cold dead eyes of tearless sight

Never such a vision of beauty has haunted lesser sights with relentlessly heartless taunts

All held within the placid picture of sanity that profusely lies with maddening logic of a mind so bent

Behind a thousand shadows that with unnerving ease present an image of unwilling content